Today has been a bad MS day, days like these really do make you wonder why and how.
I often sit and wonder how I got here. How it was me who ended up having MS.
Some might say it was karma.
At times I might agree with them.
It makes you want to apologise for all you have done and all you now cannot do.
I am sorry for the lies I told.
I am sorry to the people I hurt.
I am sorry for not being ready.
I am sorry for for not loving my sister then, like I do now, for taking her for granted.
To my girls I am sorry for not being all I can be.
Sorry for bringing the nasty disease into their lives.
Sorry for being a burden now and in their future.
Sorry for the days when I simply just can’t.
To my husband I am sorry you had to care when you were young and now as you get older.
Sorry for not always being the best wife I can be.
Sorry to all of your for our future, I can’t see it being pretty.
I am most sorry for the fact the sorry is not enough, sorry will not make this go away.